What am I doing here? Why did I even come? These are the questions I was asking myself the very first night as we worshipped. It was so different than anything I had experienced. To be honest I was not ready to let myself go and open my heart to worship God in a different way. It took a while for me to understand that I have been here at training camp to be changed and shaped.

I have been a Christian for a long time and have had a picture of who God is. I have been set on exactly what I believe and didn’t think this week would change that a whole lot. Let me just tell ya, I was wrong! One thing at the worship that was different was the way we just repeated everything over and over again as we shouted truths. It was weird for me at first, but the purpose of it all is very evident now. I have had lies in my head about who I am and who God made me to be. Letting the Holy Spirit just fill me up and allow me to shout out who I am has made such an amazing experience.

The things I have been saying were statements I have heard my entire life. They now have a whole new meaning.

“I BELONG TO JESUS!”

“I am a CHILD of GOD”

“I am no longer a slave of fear”

“I can TRUST in HIM alone in everything!”

Last night I can pinpoint as the night God reassured me that I was meant to be here on this trip. I am no longer questioning why and questioning my purpose. I have been called by God as his daughter to be a part of this generation devoted to glorifying Him. The words of Jake Hamilton have just been ringing in my ears ever since we sang that ending song yesterday.

“He’s calling wake up child

It’s your turn to shine

You were born for such a time as this.

This is the anthem of our generation,

Here we are God, Shake our nation

All we need is your love

You captivate me.”